I have to say the 12 step program just isn't working for me. It has prompted me to do some soul searching however. What am I really searching for in my life? Do I want to rid myself of books? No. I love books. Do I want to be able to resist them? Yes. Am I searching for an answer to other addictions in my life? Probably.
I ended up in the bookstore last week. I added four new books to my list. My shelves never seem to get any lighter even though I'm reading and reviewing at a fast pace. I bought a book on addiction cures for atheists. I want to see if that can shed any additional light on my dilemma.
My sister wants me to take all my unread books to the library without reading them and be done with them. I could start fresh. Tempting. I'm afraid at this point in time I may not be able to check them out of the library. I'll go back to the bookstore and hand over the credit card for a whole new set of unread books.
A good friend wants me to stop suffering through all these bad books for the sake of reading something good and worthwhile. How will I know it's good by looking at the cover? So far I haven't been very successful at that. Something that I like, the next guy may detest and vice versa. What are the qualities of a good book? What skills do I need to learn to pick the 'good' book out of the crowd every time?
Maybe that's what I'm looking for, a good book so that I can write my own good book and people will be dying to buy it. Maybe all this is being driven by my dream to be a successful writer. It's a dream so vivid that I can't shake it off. I'm going to find the answer. I know I am. It's in my dreams.
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